The past few days (bordering on week) have proven themselves to be…interesting (to say the least) for me.
Projects that I had my heart set on completing threw obstacles in my face that I wasn’t prepared to handle.
Confrontation presented itself at the worse time
and overall stupidness temporarily took over.
But through all of the madness, I had the opportunity to review myself, to see if I’ve changed from my lethal tempered days, if I truly handle situations with humility rather than pride and ego, and if I was able to actually *learn* something from everything.
The results?
Well, let’s just say: I’m not perfect.
Although I did get angry, and if I wasn’t so angry I would have probably been able to handle the situation with a lot more humility; I did learn.
I did learn that I don’t anger the same way as I use to (which was surprising to me)
I learned that I’m not willing to compromise my standards even if that means a delay
I learned I apologize too much (there is such a thing)
And I learned that I have changed. Maybe not completely in the way that I wanted to or that I thought I would’ve; nonetheless, I have changed, and I believe for the better.
I also realized that I don’t resist the challenging moments anymore, rather, I welcome them because I know that there is more to learn in hardship than there is when everything goes to plan. I think I actually appreciate the hardships (come to think of it); I consider them to be tiny bombs, but when they explode, always reveals an invaluable lesson.
So my point?
You’ll never know if you’ve grown or even how you’ve grown if you run away from anything unfamiliar or that you feel may bring some sort of conflict. You are also depriving yourself from lessons that cannot be taught to you any better than the one’s life throws at you.
Welcome anything that comes at you with open arms because even if it seems are though you’re holding onto a grenade; chances are, it’ll blow over into something utterly amazing.
